Settled?

     I'm reading a book entitled 'The Rest of God-Restoring Your Soul by Restoring Sabbath' by Mark Buchanan. Today's chapter was Restore: Stopping to Become Whole and he asked the question, Do you want to be well? Jesus often asked the physically sick if they wanted their healing. He pointed out that when we are physically sick, we do everything in our power to get well. For the last two days, my shoulder has been hurting. Slept wrong or something. So I've taken Motrin and I had every intention of resting and using heat. I tried sleeping on the other side last night. Doctors, medicine, treatment, chemo, surgery. But what do we do when it's our soul?
     We become comfortable in our weakness using it to cast blame and make excuses. Recently in my quiet time with Jesus, He revealed to me that along with my trust issues with family and friends, I don't trust Him. Ouch. I've been making excuses and have avoided Jesus even though I know what can make me well. Do I really like being this way? Why have I not thrown myself upon God with wild abandonment and really declared my true feelings to those around me. I want to follow God whole-heartedly but have settled for a small fraction of obedience and blessing.                                              SETTLED.
     It reminds me of the video from our Bible study Tuesday night. Two of the tribes of Israelites chose not to follow Joshua into the promised land. They thought they had enough of what God was offering and settled. They stayed put and missed out on more of what God truly desired to give them. Unopened gifts just waiting, sitting there.
     What gifts does God have sitting before me?
     Am I ready to be well? 

Investigate my life, O God, find out everything about me; Cross-examine and test me, get a clear picture of what I am about. See for Yourself whether I've done anything wrong-then guide me on the road to eternal life.      Psalm 139:23-24 (The Message)